i feel like a wooman inside..

hi everyone.i am a 18 year old boy from Lithuania and i desire to become a shemale. I think that this might be just a dream, because i havent got money for operations and so on... i would like to know if there are chances that some kind of shemale agency or a producer would make me a shemale and i'd worked in this business to give back the money for operations. thank you for your answers